Comment by zackmorris

I've been messing around with notions like radical inclusion and radical transparency, so just want to add that this article resonated with me. I've reached the point where I have all the tools in the world at my disposal and haven't gotten anything done in over 6 months. Most days are a complete loss: nothing accomplished, just treading water till the next day, hoping something will change and I'll get my motivation back.

It's weird to be writing this now, since I started out so ecstatic about tech that I annoyed people with my enthusiasm 20 years ago. But no more, now it's the opposite. A sense of loathing and dread when I think about writing code. My friends say maybe I should get out of programming, at least for a while.

So not really sure what to do now. I want to build things now more than ever. But it's mostly along the lines of building stuff in the real world. Writing code in any form lowers productivity by a factor of 10-100. Sure it's great once it exists, but teasing solutions out of the aether is like trying to sketch with Photoshop. The more advanced it gets, the further it strays from pencil and paper. And I just don't have the stomach to bash my head against the keyboard for hours trying to do the simplest things anymore. I feel the loss of time weighing on my shoulders more than the sense of accomplishment. Without the "aha" feeling, coding loses its luster. Without passion, coding may not even be possible.

The best thing I could do for myself is forget the last 20 years. But I don't know how to do that. Any suggestions?