Comment by cpsns
2 years ago
> How, just -how-, could anyone want this disorder?
Because they don't understand just how debilitating it is and how much trauma it causes a person. It's absolutely shit, especially for those of us who find out later in our lives like both of us apparently. Aside from the normal issues that go with it, now I'm also plagued by the thought of how things could have gone had literally anyone picked up on it when I was a kid.
I don't think it's about being cool, at least not completely, I legitimately think some folks want at least some struggle in their lives. Something to fight against, something to give them...purpose? I'm honestly not sure, but I know if they did have it they'd do everything they could to get rid of it.
Don't look back with regret, frustration and anger. Look back and be proud at what you have achieved undiagnosed and what you could achieve going forwards with a diagnosis.