Comment by christalwang
2 years ago
I'm super sorry to hear about your ex wife. I have someone close to me in the same situation and we've also been battling it for our whole lives. No need to apologize for the rant, I'm also here being mad for you (for us)!!
Well you’re doing something at least. I’m trying to get my adhd diagnosed after my mom refused when I was a kid, and I’ve been self medicating my whole life with caffeine and weed, unaware I even could have this disorder.
I thought it was just being a hyperactive kid — that wasn’t me. But then I learned about all the symptoms as an adult. Yup, I’ve got ‘em all, like friggen ash catchem. I feel like a lot of adults failed me here but I’m not blaming anyone, even my mom. She had the best intentions but didn’t trust the “medical industrial complex” as she called it.
Somehow I’ve managed all this time by placing myself in environments where my executive function isn’t impaired (I dunno if that’s even the correct terminology), but now I’m in a job where I can barely function leading people to get upset with me, and I don’t know what to do. I’ve been trying to get a diagnosis for over a year, and fiiiiiinally I have something on the books for November. It’ll be over $1000 out of pocket and I have excellent insurance. Top notch.
Anyway, this is just to say keep fighting the good fight. Don’t know if I’ll use your service but I’ll consider it after I get my diagnosis.
> I’ve been self medicating my whole life with caffeine and weed
As someone that has been treated for over a decade, I swear this combo is perhaps better than the treatments. Not initially, for there is a "honeymoon" period of course, but definitely over the longer term.
I'd go back to the combo if it weren't for the legal and social issues that come with it.
Do not let me discourage you by any means. I am just some random person with an n=1 experience. I truly hope you get the help you need, and that you find something that works even better.
Thanks for validating that this is indeed a combo that works for people suffering from this. Weed was the only way I got through my doctorate, I would have never been able to write my dissertation sober.
I’ve quit weed more or less (became a daily thing, now just occasionally). Today what I’m doing is exercising (a lot) and this is really helping me. But I do go back to the weed pen every now and then, and there’s nothing that makes me feel more focused and capable than that first hit (is that how normal people feel all the time?).
But the problem I have with it is it plugs me up and I also am driven to eat like shit. So I’ve gotta figure out the right balance still.
Sweet summer child. Insurance will pay for it. You just have to spend $5000 of your time nagging them.