Comment by Spivak

It's a good thing no one defines disorders the way you do. Going through life miserable but have set up your life in such a way and with a set of coping mechanisms that help you stay afloat is apparently fine and your life needs to be in shambles. Do you feel the same way about chronic pain? Is dragging yourself to work despite it prove you don't need help? Clearly you can handle the suffering. It's the exact same.

Surviving only because you've structured your life to revolve around the limitations of your disorder isn't a sign that everything is fine.

Adderall and its contemporaries aren't speed and I promise you it isn't fun. Stimulant medications are miserable to be on, it's just that not being on them is worse. That one time you took high-dose adderall in college is not at all reflective of what the experience is like.