Comment by m0rissette
1 year ago
Coming up on the 6th anniversary of his death; my wife and I are separated and going through a divorce. I’d like to say it is all my fault because I am still emotionally unavailable but it takes two.
As for advice I think as we all relationships, communication is key. I dropped the ball here because honestly the first year I only got out of bed to go to the liquor store.
Year two, I drained my retirement to live while staying 24/7 obliterated and not dealing with what can only be called a complete loss of one’s identity and self.
I don’t think it is healthy for us to stay together because she took the loss much easier than I at least from all outward appearance.
Years 3-5 was a very introspective and healing time where I went through periods of depression and hopelessness.
I’m now in the rediscovering who I am phase because I kind of lost that along the way.
So in conclusion, a combination of LSD and therapy(CBT) allowed me to start moving forward with life and slowly getting out of a never ending cycle of grief.
That probably doesn’t answer your question but I think every one who has to go through this kind of event is going to handle it differently.
Thank you for your answer.
I’ve found after years of trying to escape all that I’ve lost. Talking about it helps the most.
You can see the PTSD and anxiety still has me up at 4:16am, I still don’t sleep well. I’m still healing and I imagine I may never fully heal but I do have hope that one day I will be better and have grown immensely through the experience but even today I have survivors guilt for being at work instead of home.