Comment by pmarreck
1 year ago
A lot of this seems alien to me but I've also suffered from lifelong anger issues (perhaps also due to some corporal punishment I experienced) so it probably tracks... so I'm going to try these. I am especially sensitive to being struck physically. When my 2.6 year old son hits me, for example (the other night he literally tried to grab my eyeball out, out of the blue, fingernails and all), I must immediately walk away and let his mother know, otherwise I am in danger of reacting badly.
One of my first memories is of "biting Mother."
Her response was "bite this little bastard back."
I've spent decades untangling our Love. RIP, Mom.
Same on all fronts. Mom died March 2020, a week before COVID lockdowns. The wake for her we had at our house was the last social engagement I experienced for at least a year.
I'm so glad you got to have the wake, "normally" ; our family chose to not have any gatherings and I hosted one myself, but CoVid was full swing and I wasn't prepared to be the sole "surviving family members" amongst all her wonderful/heartfelt friends.