Comment by alfor

What you are chasing is your god or a spiritual quest.

As you don't have a conception of a global god on top of all the other you swing from one to another: finding myself, doing hard, things, robotics, climate change, girlfriend, pleasure, etc.

Those can all be good things, but they are not the top thing.

"You will have no other god beside me"

The central God is you idea of good, the things beyond your reach.

You keep your girlfriend, she become your wife and you have kids. You can climb montains but it doesn't need to be himalaya, etc. Maybe your big thing will still end up around physics Everything in it's place. In the proper amount.

Now if you loose one thing it's not the end of your world.

This keep you centered and avoid the crazy swings.

As we can see in this tale, his god was the startup or money. Once he had more than enought no motivation was left, he killed his god and had to find another one. This happen to a lot of people that reach their goal, instead of being happy they are emotionaly destroyed.

I hope this is clear and can help others.