Comment by roughly

THERAPY.

THE THING YOU ARE LOOKING FOR IS THERAPY.

SAY IT WITH ME:

THER A PY.

Everything in this post is about how you keep tripping over your own bullshit and don’t know what you want. The only difference between you and everyone else having an existential crisis is you won the lottery before you ran out of ways to lie to yourself. The good news is you’ve apparently got enough money to pay for the help so many other people need but can’t get. Go find a therapist and figure out why you’re so goddamn miserable (emotionally, not as a person) and what stupid stories you’ve been telling yourself to make you that way so you can use all the wealth you’ve accumulated to do something fulfilling, instead of trying to cosplay as the most visibly miserable person on the planet.