Comment by onetruthseeker

What you are experiencing is the fundamental human predicament. All humans ignore it because they keep focusing on the outside - chasing money, power, fame, things. However, nothing from the outside can fix our deepest desire, the deepest restlessness. There is no way to know what you want without understanding who you are. Since you like hard things, I’ll say this - the outer journey can be hard but the inner journey is the hardest. No one can be satisfied with themselves unless they see themself clearly. The one who is looking at the world is the one who suffers. The answers lie in the observer.