Comment by throwaway1322

Hi, very similar situation as you. Diagnosed OCD, paranoia and trust issues. I also struggle with feeling loved and see myself as a burden. I also struggle with the idea that I'm only useful to produce taxes and that removing myself from the equation is the only control I have over the situation. I jokingly refer to death as "The Sweet Release". Anyway, not much point to my comment here other than relating to your situation and wanting to thank you for writing it.