Comment by bbor

I've gotta say, that is by far the most wholesome, empathetic reply I've ever received on this forum, and possibly on any forum. So on a personal level, thank you. Really. Especially because lamenting that I could've scooped Anthropic is just undeniably hubristic; my reasoning for not sharing partial results at the time was mostly about AI safety, which is silly in hindsight for betraying the exact same sin.

The (penti-)closing statement is also pretty damn poignant, and very true. I daresay your thoughts on publishing deserve to be published!

Substantively, I absolutely agree in theory -- I even recently set up my Substack with this in mind, despite that being an insane thing to do when frantically job searching! I (/Claude...) just found a brief exchange[1] I had w/ @simonw on this very topic almost exactly two years ago below a heartfelt blog post[2] about someone's personal reasons for struggling with this, even. Reading it now mostly serves to remind me of the roadblocks, though:

1. I was quibbling with his advice to "force" yourself to share by reflex (and the author's framing of the failure to do so as "laziness"), and two more years of reading about, discussing, and managing AD[H]D symptoms have only strengthened my convictions there. Charitably, getting into the habit of publishing is an investment, and my metaconscious/'inner critic' has plenty of quite plausible arguments as to why it wouldn't be worth the squeeze[3]; less charitably, I'd note that the relatable blogger in question only posted twice over the following 12 months.

2. That exchange took place just as A) reasoning models were changing everything, B) artificial articles outnumbered human ones for the first time.[4] In the intervening years we've seen AI turn from niche to vitriolic, and at least a dozen variations of "If you didn't care enough to write it yourself, I don't care enough to read it" posts hit the front page of HN. Obviously we all agree and are talking about human writing/ideating here, but the overall vibe is still undeniably... tense, let's say[5].

I still appreciate your comment and agree, mostly because the anxieties presumably lessen considerably with exposure and practice. In other words, I'd get used to it.

In fact, I just queried the corpus that I ironically have yet to publish the pipeline for, and I've written 6,280 real comments (>50 words of original text) and 1,788 long ones (>100 words) since that day on Reddit, Bluesky, and here. Some of that might be real differences --say, ostensible anonymity on Reddit and lower expectations for mere comments-- but the only factor that accounts for a spread of 6,280-0 is habit and comfort, I think.

As usual (55 times since November 11th, 2024): apologies for the rant, y'all.

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[1]: https://arxiv.org/abs/2606.12073