Comment by anal_reactor

I graduated from top university. I wasn't a particularly bright student, so I had to study very hard in order to pass classes. Just like you say, professor could fail a third of the class and that was normal. Having a weekend off meant that I was forgetting about something.

After graduation, I stopped learning. The older I get, the less point I see in endless grinding. Sometimes I watch some pop-sci shows on YouTube, but pretty much without any actual knowledge retention. At my work I do the bare minimum not to get fired.

I wonder what does this all mean. On one hand I think that if I worked hard again I could achieve great things. But on the other... god damn, I was constantly depressed as a student. Now that I spend my time just dicking around, at least I don't want to kill myself.