Comment by tripped6789

Experiencing ego death is a mystical experience. Perhaps it is the mystical experience.

You describe it in terms that make sense to your culture. Perhaps the term mystic has been contaminated for you by all the nonsense and bullshit.

The experience is very difficult to communicate, generally relying heavily on metaphor. Those who are uninitiated often wildly misunderstand. We see this in other areas of life too, cargo culting for example, but the deep and very personal nature of the mystical experience pretty much ensures confusion.

A perpetual motion crackpot probably describes themselves as a "physicist", but that's nonsense and bullshit too.

You are a mystic in the real sense, having an esoteric experience and then integrating it into your worldview.

Psychedelic drugs are just one way of doing this, but one of the more accessible.

I think your attitude is completely appropriate, by the way.