Comment by snozolli

Take this with a grain of salt, because I'm just some guy who read your comment, but I think you might want to look into things to help you relax somewhat in these situations. Meditation, focused breathing, L-Theanine, and even beta blockers, if necessary. Maybe use a smart watch to track your heart rate and blood pressure. I'm not being glib, I really think that these things can help us deal with the stress that causes a negative feedback loop.