Comment by mlrtime

One can make the argument that certain religious practices would help a person realize what OP is feeling all the time about morals, not just in front of their death bed.

Lots of replies here about after life, and just doing the right thing because you're supposed to or "empathy", yet there are a set of people like OP who only observe this when their life is put in front of them for review, maybe they do need religion?