Comment by isoprophlex
7 hours ago
Yeah, I have an extremely bright lamp designed to tread SAD that I sit, or well used to sit, in front of every morning. Daylight responsive led strip in my home office. And a pair of glasses with blue LEDs for on the go. It did... 10%? of what citalopram eventually did for me.
Have you tried more light? Like, a lot more light? Like, getting a light meter and aiming for 10-20,000 lux in your room? This blog was a good start for me.
https://www.benkuhn.net/lux/
Thanks for the reply. Does the citalopram completely obviate the need for the extra lighting or do you find there is still a benefit to having the daylight lighting too?
I've stopped caring for my various lamps. I turn on the bright panel out of habit while working at my desk... but I don't feel "drawn" to it as before. I'd, for example, set my phone to the highest brightness in a dark room to motivate myself to get out of bed, or at least get to the light switch. Now I don't care, I just get up.
And I can look at the dark world outside the kitchen windows in the morning and not feel oppressed. It's just a lack of light, no menacing presence.